Aha.

We meet again.

I like blogging. It's so much better than the instant message because it's like I'm talking to someone who isn't trying to get their 2 cents in. You're a reader. You're a really good listener. You don't have much to say at the moment. You just want to hear me talk. You'll say your piece when I'm done via comment. Or you wont. Doesn't matter. It's a beautiful thing.

I'm at work again. I'm feeling really at peace with myself for some reason. I was a little sad earlier because I just think too much sometimes. But, it's funny, 2 things happened just now that I think made all the difference. I ate a salad, and I think that eating well and knowing you've eaten well just makes you feel better. I feel like I've done something good for myself, for once, and even if only for a moment, I'm a better person for it.

Also, I heard a song. I didn't choose this song. A short series of events led me to it. The song is called Sea of Love, and this particular version is by Cat Power. Most people would know it from the movie Juno. It put me at peace and I have a couple of Regesters to thank for that.

Reader, why do I think so much? Is it because I don't think I deserve to be happy, so I fabricate problems and hurt my relationships? Or, Reader...are the problems not made up at all? Is my alleged paranoia derived from truth, or am I simply a victim of my own self-sabotage? I wish I knew, because something needs to be done. I must find out the truth, or else I may regret the decision I have to make.

Where's Dr. Phil when you need him?

All that being said, I'd like to learn to play guitar.

I love you Reader. I really do.

Goodnight.
~Brittany